Relaxed

This morning Rachel climbed out of bed, looked at me with a slightly bemused expression, and said "where going?" I guess that makes sense after a 3 day weekend. She wasn't in a particularly good mood. Her conversation went something like "I'm not a girl. I'm not Rachel. Not Going. It's not for me. I wear stupid." Lately she's gotten a little better at getting dressed on her own, but today we were back to having me remind her to put on every single item of clothing. (a side rant: why is it that I buy her a shirt that fits, even a little loosely, I wash it in cold water, hang it to dry, she looses weight, and now it's so skin tight that I feel uncomfortable letting her wear it in public? Annoying!!!!) Anyway, we got her ready for school and she went out to the bus without any particular issues, but I really would have enjoyed a smile.

Her brother has been sick the last few days so we didn't do much yesterday, even though it was a day off. It was a relaxing day, which was probably good. I'm really hoping nobody else gets sick. When Rachel was a baby she got sick almost anytime anyone looked at her, and every time she got sick, she would have a seizure. That always triggered vomiting. When she would get to the point where she couldn't even keep water down we would end up in the emergency room. Eventually her immune system got stronger and now she doesn't get sick any more than anyone else does, her seizures are rare, and it's been a really long time since we've had to rush her to the doctor. I'm so grateful for her improved health. I used to keep her home from things I know she would have enjoyed, especially in the winter, just because I was afraid she would get sick. I don't have to worry about that anymore. Sometimes I just need to remind myself that we've overcome some things, and be grateful. If she gets sick, it will mean a few days of her missing school and being uncomfortable and needing to watch her a little closer for seizures. That's all.  I sincerely hope she doesn't get sick, but I'm grateful there's no need to enter crisis mode.